It's not just me is it? This lockdown is a lot tougher than the first two. Well, I know it's not just me because my friends are saying the same things as I am.
As much as I am the epitome of a home bird, and love to snuggle up on the sofa with my cats (and sometimes Gary) and binge-watch Netflix, I am really missing going out socialising. I don't even mean going 'out out'. I mean just going to a local cafe for brunch or a coffee and a catch-up with my friends. Zoom and FaceTime are all well and good but it's just not the same as seeing someone in person.
And don't even get me started on hugs! Gary gives great bear hugs, but I really miss giving my friends a squeeze, even the ones that don't enjoy them (you know who you are!)
I try and keep this blog as positive as I can, so I did think twice before writing this post. But I also want to keep this space real and the reality is we all feel a bit crappy!
I'm not ashamed to say I've broken down a few times over the last couple of weeks. Times when I've really wanted to hug my friends tightly.
It's not just the fact that we are stuck indoors. It's also the culmination of my old anxieties, worrying about my travel business and the future of the travel industry. I was trying to balance that and working full time, for an atrocious contact centre, who micro-managed your every move. Throw in the guilt I was feeling of not being able to go round and see mum and dad as often (I'm their support bubble) and that is what brought on my wobble.
But it's allowed, not just for me but of us all. You don't have to keep it together all of the time.
To end things on a more positive note, my contract with that dire contact centre has come to an end and I am free!
I have more full time work on the horizon, which will be much more flexible as they have a great work home life balance ethos.
And, everyone is desperate to go on holiday when this shit show is over, so I am raring to go and make my business a success.
I've said it before and I'll say it again.....
It's ok not to be ok.
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