I know I'm supposed to make lemonade but sometimes it's just too hard!
Let me catch you up on the last couple of months.
I am still adjusting to my dad being in a care home and seeing him deteriorate so quickly. The home has now been in lockdown 3 times and dad has also tested positive for Covid. Thankfully he didn't have any symptoms.
Certain things happen that make me miss him more. It was his birthday last week and we couldn't see him because of the home being in lockdown. That was tough.
I have written a chapter for a book about inspirational women and when I received a copy of the book in paperback, I was overcome with emotion thinking how much my 'old' dad would have been proud of me and wishing I could have shared the achievement with him.
Last month, after a long illness, my father-in-law passed away. I am supporting Gary as much as I can but find myself feeling guilty when I get upset about my dad because at least I will get the chance to see him and hug him again.
During all of this I decided to make a big change and move travel companies, as the consortium I was with was causing me to feel stressed and anxious. I have learnt now that when this happens I need to do something about it before it takes hold. A few years ago I would have just stewed over the things that were bothering me. I'd have had sleepless nights worrying about what to do.
Instead, I gave my feedback, did some research and terminated my contract. I have been with my new company for 4 weeks now and feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
So onward and upward I go.
